Regrets. those are one of the many things in life that can make people feel like shit. And damn, i got a great many of those. Gah, i realised my life is so full of negatives and i'm like a mean complaining machine. whatever.

yeah, i may regret this in time to come IF my pesky employer runs an online check on me, to see my beautiful and impressive use of 'vocab' but whatever, i'm young, pesky and wild. Just let me get this out.

REGRET #1 (FUCKING HUGE)

being president of fucking HO


mygod, the entire process was HELL. i can't even tell you how much time and effort i put in. How much emotional turmoil i went through. Yeah, i'm weak. emotionally. Thats exactly why i shouldn't have gotten the position. They had better choices, why not them? why me? god, if only i could smash that fucking cup that sealed my fate about a year ago. would you give me back all my time and effort?

It spoiled my relations with my juniors. It made CCA seem like pure torture. It took up almost all of time for studying. the most obvious effect was of course my academic achievements. I was nearly a straight A student before i took over, scoring and L1R5 of 8. which still presentable. and afterwards? the score doubled. damnit, i was shocked. and thats when i knew i had to start pulling up my socks. and amongst all that " push the fucking cca to greater heights" with virtually NO HELP FROM THE TEACHER.

okay, i was on the verge of snapping then. and then i did. Because the juniors couldn't listen. maybe a defect in their brain during pregnacy. impairment of the use of a certain part of the brain, the part which controls all the social etiquette and social behaviour or whatnot. They jumped the hierarchy, and got the leaders into SHIT. the fucking chalet was now cancelled. man, i cried. the very first time i did in front of people.
they just simply cant spare a thought for the seniors can they? the chalet is a tradition, to thank the seniors for their work, their contributions, their guidance. my god, i can't believe their so childish and absolutely no sense of gratefulness. DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING MUCH I WENT THROUGH TO GET THE CHALET BACK AFTER YOU GUYS FUCKED US UP??? no, you simply can't. retribution is near my friends.

 Yes, i hear there's word that they may not be chalet this year. Its fine, i wouldnt go even if you'd beg me too. Yes, i hate juniors.(generally)


well, the chalet's one major event. and plenty of little things. like- let me emphasize- getting ABSOLUTELY NO HELP from the TEACHER. and also, BOMBING us with CONCERTS. erm hello? in case you haven't noticed, i'm not god, not some superwoman? and after today, I can safely say that i hate him, really hardcore devilish HATE HIM, to the very core. he doesnt deserve to be called a teacher.


WHY? he's irresponsible, he's dumb, he's a procrastinator and he's corrupted. when i say corrupted i dont mean financially. i meant he's fucking biased, and if he doesnt like you refuses to acknowledge any achievements or contributions you've made, and even forgets your name after 3 months?

he requested for me to do LEAPS report for him. fine, even though is fucking his job. I specifically told him (with witness around me) that day, i didnt think some ppl deserved their points and wanted to omit their scores. he say okay. so i didnt key it in. and today, when the reports came out. hoho, THEY GOT 2 FUCKING YEARS WORTH OF POINTS and I GOT ONLY 1 YEAR. hoho, they did NOTHING and got more points than me??????? HOHOHO i'm starting to believe in santa now.

words can't describe what i'm about to do/say/scream/cry.


FUCK HIM OKAY. FUCKING BALD BALL OF FLESH, LIMPING FUCKER. HE DERSERVES TO DIE UNDER A ROCK AND MORE. POUR ACID ON HIM, THEN ALKALI AND SLOWLY LIGHT HIM ON FIRE. THE MIX THE ASHES IN WATER AND LET THE PIGS DRINK IT. fucking coward. i've never seen a man guilty of  more cowardice than you.


i hope, you people read this.